Why do I put so much pressure on myself to achieve perfection? I don’t even know what perfect looks like. I don’t even think it exists.
If I can’t complete something ‘perfectly’ then sometimes I just don’t want to try at all. Perfectionism causes procrastination!
I’m guilty of this on a daily basis, I don’t even realise I am doing it most of the time… but there is just this niggling voice at the back of my head telling me things – My house isn’t clean enough for people to come over (what on earth would they think of me?), The hallway needs decorating, I don’t look right, my clothes aren’t nice, my make up is rubbish, my hair is a mess, what if people stare at me, what if they laugh behind my back? Have I done me work right, did I word that email correctly, will they take it the wrong way? Did I say the wrong thing earlier, have I upset them?
You get the gist of it.
I think everyone can feel like this at times, It just affects some of us more than others. I can’t help wondering where it stems from. A fear of being judged maybe, or caring too much. The fact is, no one is perfect.
If we could just get rid of the negative thoughts and spend less time worrying what other people think we could spend more time actually sorting the things we are stressing about… such as the tidying up. I’m going to work on that.
I am still on the path of getting my life in some kind of order. I never got round to that big wardrobe sort out that I said I would do in my earlier blog post but it’s still on the cards. I got distracted by another aspect in my life, my health. I’ve been taking on Sweatember to raise money for Cancer Research and have been completing 15,000 steps per day… ouch, only 7 days to go! I’ve also learned how to watch what I eat properly and I think I’ll write a separate post on that later.
Anyway… I’ll leave this post here and hopefully I can just publish it without worrying what people will think when they read it, or if it’s PERFECT.
No one ever truly feels like they have everything under control… do they?